I kick off week four of TYSIC by doing absolutely nothing. From looking at my previous posts I have noticed that my pattern seems to be one week of progress and then another of falling flat on my face. I also realized this week how badly I tend to react when things go badly.
Yesterday, I went to my school's dining hall and brought my laptop (maybe if I would have actually tried this week I would have been social and gone with a friend, but I didn't) with me so I would have something to do. I open it up and it just froze. I did try to use my newly found optimism by thinking "hey, that's okay lot's of computers freeze." I turned it off and when I turned it back off nothing happened. Well, it seems that was all I needed to turn most of the optimism I had found into the pessimism I've always known so well. I pressed down the power button and turned it off again. I waited a couple minutes and decided "okay, let's not get carried away, it'll be okay." I turned it on and the computer got stuck again. All the screen showed was "Toshiba - Leading Innovation." I started doing everything at that point. From unplugging it to removing the battery to having it cool off and then try again, but nothing.
That's when I called my dad to tell him how incredibly crappy the computer was. I went off on how Toshiba was a bullshit company run by a bunch of idiots. Yes, I lost it. I know. And he just told me "Well maybe you can take the battery off for a while, maybe that will work. Anyways I need to get back to work. I'll call you later." So what did I do I called my mom and basically told her the same exact thing. Only it took me longer because I couldn't find the exact words I wanted to use in Spanish.
After I got done talking to her, it still wouldn't work. It had been almost an hour. And all optimism had gone out the window. I did even smack the keyboard a bit. But after I did hit it, magically my laptop came back to life. So now that I know I have a masochistic laptop, I guess I'll know what to do if this were ever to happen again.
So if anything, this week was a test of my optimism and I failed. Here's hoping I'll do better next week.
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